It has been a week and its high time to put all things behind me. If the other person could not give me the privilege of closure then I’d rather do it on my own.
What happened a week ago could have been one of the most terrible things I’ve experienced/felt. If someone would judge how I behaved, some may say it was overrated. I could have simply dismissed it (like I always do), so what if I wasted 3 hrs? That was a retribution for choosing what shouldn’t have been.
But it wasn’t just about the wasted hours!?! For all that has been, I am not understanding what made me deserve it. Yes I was never your gf and you don’t owe me or anyone an explanation for whatever it is that you choose not to do/do. But I am your friend, and as a friend you owe me that. As a friend you shouldn’t speak to me in riddles and you should consider things important to me too.
Whatever it is you chose not to do, it must be something more important than our friendship. I will respect that. After all, you have the right to live your life in whichever way you wanna live it, choose whoever you wanna be close with.
There is a thin line between agape and eros. And if I ever loved you more than a friend should have, should you take it against me? I did so and all I ever wanted was for you to be honest (at least say something). I’ve long decided to simply stop but I’m only human and of all the things I can control, its my heart which I can’t.
a ranter.
