TESSELLATE: Two weeks ago, if you asked me how I was doing...
You may think, “So what?You have so much more going for you with your job, and you live in a great city and you’ve already made good friends there”. I know all this, and I don’t take any of those other things for granted. The problem is before all this desire to be someone with an amazing job, to make it in a city where a lot of people don’t, to venture out by myself and make it on my own came along, the only thing I ever really wanted was real love. Selfless, consuming love. Up to this very moment that is one of the things that I want most in life, more than anything else. Every other accomplishment and possession is incomparable to it, and meaningless without it. And I just think it’s unfortunate to feel that I may never find it. Not the kind that’s right for me, no.
It’s just so unfortunate.
It will come someday, sweetheart. We have so much love to give. For the time being, let’s just hold on tight. One day the right person who deserves all of that will come along at the right time and it will be nothing short of wonderful.
a ranter.
